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Yesterday was not a bad day, until I got home.  I started to cook dinner and sent the minions (kids) outside to play.  After a few minutes they came running in to tell me there were feathers all over the place in the backyard.  I had let the chickens out to forage for the day in the morning, so I thought this was not going to end well.  It didn’t.

I found lots of feathers and a chicken who was still alive, but ripped up pretty bad.  I was missing 3 more.  After a search, I turned up 1 body that was not eaten.  Even better, they weren’t attacked by something hungry, this was for pleasure.  I know now that the chickens can no longer be outside the run unattended. 

After I buried the one, I dug another hole.  The injured hen was not going to make it, way too much damage.  And she was suffering.  I couldn’t let her die slowly in pain, so I decided I had to take care of her.  I have seen animals dying and dead, but never have I killed with intent.  It was a hard decision and even harder to pull off.  My husband offered to do it for me, but I determined that they were my birds and it was my decision to let them out, so it was my mess to clean up.

I have struggled with what I had to do since last night, not sleeping well and trying to hold it together when I think about it.  I almost pushed my 12 miler off to tomorrow, afraid that I couldn’t make it emotionally.  I did do it today and I did it well.  I had to work through the emotions a few times and regained control by focusing on the beauty I saw around me.  A pair of Canadian geese with chicks by the shore, a startled blue heron gracefully leaping to flight, a deer bounding across the road in front of me.  And the lake views, flowers, bird song and sunshine stayed with me the rest of the time.

The 2 hours I spent on road therapy helped me to move past the horror of what I had seen and done last night.  I am sad, my ladies are closer to pets than livestock for me and this was our first mass slaughter.  I have 6 left and we will spend this weekend doing what we can to protect them for the future.

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